Porn masturbation hurt me

Case 1:

Hello everyone, what I am saying below is the truth, and it is also my own personal retribution. Masturbation has hurt me so hard that I have made me walk to the edge of my life countless times. I really advise everyone to abstain from lust and do good deeds.Masturbation is a way out of no return, and only by quitting can we open the door to happiness!

2005In the summer of 2018, I was admitted to an undergraduate college. Because my university life was very leisurely and there were no too many constraints and learning tasks, most of them were in love.I am quite introverted. Because I have lived in the countryside since I was a child and am not very good at socializing, so I was lonely and lonely in my first semester of college life and loneliness and couldn’t find my direction!

The real nightmare was the second semester of my freshman year. At that time, I was envious of my seniors who had girlfriends and many people who talked about love. And we were basically the same in the same grade.To be honest, I am very envious because I am a little introverted, not very social, and have a little inferior, so I have not found a girlfriend.It was the time of growth and development, and I was curious and impulsive about what happened between men and women. My roommates in our dormitory often watched it after evening self-study. AV Everyone is used to this movie, because now I watch it in college AV I have become accustomed to it (Amitabha, sins), and my concept is relatively conservative. At the beginning, they just watched it, but I walked away and didn't watch it.Because I was curious, I slowly started to look at it. Everyone in the dormitory said to watch it. AV It's normal, normal needs, all of them are adults, and later I looked at it under this idea AV。 Because young people have a strong physiological reaction after watching it, those obscene scenes kept appearing in their minds, and they felt uncomfortable, so they had their first masturbation. I remember it was the first half of 2006, and it gradually became more frequent after that, and it took two or three days. Sometimes once a day, they would commit adultery when they saw beautiful classmates, and then they would watch it. AV， When masturbating, I fantasize about a girl (sincerely sins, I have committed countless sins, and my students will repent, and I will repent to my classmates).

In the past, I was very strong, but after masturbation, I couldn't do it. I was very poor. I sweated and had listless, had poor memory, and I was even more lonely. I was afraid of interacting with strangers and was worried about something wrong.The above are all the retribution for my evil lust.

The ancient sages said that lust was the leader. I didn’t understand much about this sentence before, but later I understood it.I personally realized that masturbation lasted for 3 years, and many things at home were not going well. I really made my parents suffer. At that time, I vaguely knew that it was my own fault, but my classmates all said that masturbation is harmless and can solve the pressure (a nonsense, a sin). In addition, masturbation is very addictive, no worse than taking drugs. I really remind all fellow practitioners to stay away from it.In 2008, I had a serious illness, which was a lunatic. At that time, I spent all my family’s money. My parents accompanied me to see a doctor everywhere, but the disease did not recover at all, which made my parents suffer.At that time, I also knew that it was the consequence of my masturbation. The nearly one year from the second half of 2008 to the first half of 2009 made me worse than death. There was no exaggeration at all, and I was severely insomnia, obsessive-compulsive disorder, anxiety, depression, and almost couldn't finish my career.During the summer vacation of 2008, I told my dad not to study anymore because I was very sick at that time, and my father wanted to cry and was very sad.I also know that my parents worked hard to support me in school, but they almost graduated from college, but they failed!I didn't know how I got through that year (thank goodness, I finally got through it)