The deep repentance of the evil disciple

evil YIN The disciple's deep repentance

In fact, I wanted to repent for the crime of adultery that I have committed in the past ten years very early. First, it is a warning to myself, and second, it is to help friends who are still in the sea of adultery to remind me that adultery is the most painful sin in the world, which makes you have nothing to do and be poor for a lifetime after a short period of pleasure.

My family environment since I was a child was not bad. Both myself and my sister graduated from undergraduate studies. My father is honest and honest and often tells me the principles of being a human being, but I never thought that I have been a person with a strong lust since I was a child.

From elementary school to junior high school, I had a business fantasy with the beautiful women in my class and the female teachers around me. However, this kind of fantasy is not the kind of fantasy of the sum of the body of the body of the body of the body of the puberty. It may be the kind of curiosity of the opposite sex in puberty, but this is also the beginning of my adultery.But compared to the years that followed, these years have been free and innocent, and they have not suffered so much physical and mentally.From elementary school to junior high school, although I am curious about the body of the opposite sex, it may also be affected by the erotic part of the TV.In elementary and junior high school, I have always had good grades and have no habit of masturbation, but I always have the urge to rebel and learn bad things in my heart. I am close to home, so I have always been an obedient child.The only time, in the winter of the third year of junior high school, it was far away from home. Several children from a village rented a house together.

，There is a classmate in our school who is a slutty person. I remember one night, I talked about sleeping with girls, and showed off my condom, sitting in front of others. This time, it may have caused great pollution to me, so sometimes I still think of that scene. The classmate later got married, divorced, had a bad relationship, and had a mess in his career, and this is also the result of evil lust.

I might have started masturbating in high school. At that time, from the first time I felt pleasure, to the out of control, I had masturbation in class, dormitory, Internet cafe, home, and outdoors.From that time on, I also changed, and my whole mind and appearance became ugly and vulgar.I went to high school almost between 2008 and 2011. At that time, mobile phones began to become popular, so with the popularity of the Internet, pornography became increasingly high, and it became easier to get pornographic information. At that time, I often read pornographic books from classmates. Now, I think about it, it really shouldn't be. After the short pleasure, I brought a lot of pain to myself. The biggest thing was the pollution of the mind, the decline of brain power, the thin body, narrow mind, conceited and inferior.When I was in the first college entrance examination, I didn’t get into the undergraduate program, so I chose to repeat the exam. Now, thinking about it, this is all the evil retribution of adultery.

After repeating the study, I was admitted to the undergraduate degree, but the university was originally loose and far away from home, so masturbation became more serious when I went to college, making my mind and body more vulgar and ugly.During college, I often watched yellow in the dormitory, library, and outdoors, masturbating again, which deeply hurt myself.If you have any injuries, you will be happy and worried about your relatives. If you have any injuries, you will be embarrassed by your relatives.Thinking about it now, my sexual misconduct not only hurts my body, but also hurts my virtues. I am really ashamed of my parents and let down my parents’ grace for raising me.Spending through masturbation in college has caused me to have a pale face, a hunchback, a chaotic mental power, and a very lonely life. I met my beloved girl and felt very inferior, which led to not having a relationship in college.These are all the bitter fruits of adultery. It’s so painful to think about it. I got nothing after four years of college.

After graduation, I started working and gradually realized the consequences of sexual misconduct, so I started to quit sex., but I have been repeatedly defeated. I have been rude for a few days. The demons in my heart attacked and failed again. Afterwards, I regretted and blamed myself and vowed to abstain from sex, but I have never given up. Until now, my body and mental aspects have improved day by day. This is the benefit of abstaining from sexual misconduct. Although it is painful now, I will persist and restore a pure mind and a healthy body.

In addition to this, I have to repent. Once I went to the bathing center with my friend and committed the crime of adultery. Thinking about my thoughts at that time, I was really dirty and I was a college student. My words and deeds over the years have really tarnished the education I received and the hope of my parents. I am really sorry to my parents, and I am sorry to every relative and friend around me who cares about and loves me.

In the sea of sexual desire, I felt deeply the pain of sexual desire. Every time I lost myself in the sea of sexual desire, once I had evil thoughts in my heart, I would feel out of control. If I don’t have the right knowledge and views, or the spirit of strict self-discipline, it would be even more difficult to extricate myself. One reason is that my physical damage is caused, and the other is that my virtues and virtues have become worse. The direct consequences are love bumps, career setbacks, nothing, and poverty and humbleness for a lifetime.

In this world, there are many people who commit adultery, including masturbation. So I hope that every friend who is still committing adultery will learn from me. The above content is just an overview. The harm caused by adultery to people’s blessings and body is actually not only these, and the pain brought by adultery is not only the above. Therefore, every one of our compatriots should actively contact good teachers, such as disciples’ rules and Shoukang Baojian, and constantly cleanse their hearts and restore their integrity.I feel that there is nothing more than a righteous body that brings people enjoyment and freedom. Everyone works hard to break free from the sea of sexual desire, help more people around them, and bring help and value to the people around them.

Finally, I have been in contact with Buddhism for a long time. Thank you for encountering Buddhism. Namo Avalokitesvara Bodhisattva. I deeply repent for the sin of adultery committed in the past. Now I will repent in public. May the Dharma and Buddhas and Bodhisattvas bless me to my disciples so that I can get out of the sea of suffering of adultery as soon as possible, and have smooth feelings and no setbacks or bumps, and have successful careers. I will continue to accumulate virtue and do good deeds, act according to the Dharma, be a human being, and practice according to the Dharma. Namo Avalokitesvara Bodhisattva.