I have been masturbating for 15 years, and I have aged for 15 years. . . .

Once a male science professor said to me: If you continue to sink, you will have nothing but illness at the age of 40, and you will have nothing but a disease, and you will even have a short life.

I didn't listen to it. I already knew about this talisman Evil lustIt's the website, and I haven't come to quit lust, so I continue sy Continuing to fall into degrading yourself, it also leads to incomplete thoughts and confusion, negativeness, inferiority, fear, cowardice and alcoholism.

Three years later, I am 30 years old. Bald, white hair, haggard, old, and a few white beards. Any stranger thinks that I am over 45 years old, so I am honored to be the one who has the title.

Now I am very scared, very scared, very ashamed, and very heartbroken. I have been in my thirties for the past 30 years.

Now sy After that, I was exhausted, dizzy, tinnitus, and immediately drowsy. I also had to eat good meat and eggs to replenish my body. If I didn't eat, I would be very tired and I would have to sleep for a long time before I could get up.； Vision declines, night blindness is severe, and people's faces cannot be seen clearly if they are five or six meters long ； The feeling of palpitations and shortness of breath, the heart is very weak and the feeling of not being able to provide blood, the heartbeat is disordered ； The waist was sore in the morning, so I really wanted to stuff a hot water bag there. I didn't want to get up, and I was not energetic when I got up. ；

Body odor is the most obvious. Body odor, sy The hair under the armpits will be covered with sticky yellow and breast-like things, which is very smelly； Feet smelly and ulcers, so you can't stand it no matter how expensive your socks are ； The earwax in the ears is very full, very greasy and smelly ； Lots of booze, smelly ； Hot flashes in the lower body, also have odor, itchy, and inflammation ； Hair is greasy, and it smells if you don't wash overnight. If you get scratched, you will lose your hair, and you will lose your hair. ； The body is also greasy. But these odors will improve significantly without masturbating for a week, but unfortunately I can't quit.

I don’t drink much anymore, but I still drink some, and it’s easy to get drunk. I lose my memory when I get drunk. It wasn’t like this before, and I don’t even know how to get home. It’s terrible. I used to have lustful thoughts after drinking sy， Now I suddenly realize that I can’t get hard after drinking!

In order to maintain my health and cope with work, I have taken a lot of Chinese medicine, Chinese patent medicine, and made various wines myself. I have also earned 4,000 yuan in the past few years. You should know that my annual income is only 10,000 yuan.

Because I am addicted to lust and weak water, I blame myself for being inferior, feel guilty and confused, I dare not take responsibility, I dare not take on heavy work responsibilities, I dare not face reality, I win, I can only indulge in my self-made fantasy every day and every moment, living a walking corpseLife，I always want to get something for nothing and become addicted to gambling. Even my income in the next three years has been overdrawn and I have borrowed money to make a living.

I have overdrawn my time, money, credit, morality, human feelings, health, and life. Everything that has maintained my life is shaking. I am still afraid of the lustful demon, and I am afraid that the tenth Rakshasa girl will come to suck my essence and blood and devour my life.

I want to have a child even more, I want to live with a radiant and energetic spirit and coolness!