Confessions of a divorced woman

Every time I see someone else's history of sexual misconduct, I feel that it is nothing compared to my history of sexual misconduct. Thinking about the history of sexual misconduct over the past ten years, I just think I am too shameless.To describe it in two words is too shameless and too cheap.In the past ten years, more than 20 men have committed adultery and have had five abortions at the same time.I paid a heavy price for my shameless behavior, and at the same time I had to buy orders for my whole life.

When all disasters come, I ask myself that I am a good person with good heart, filial, sensible, well-behaved and obedient, and hard work.howdestinyThis teasing me made me live a mess, life was worse than death, and poverty.I found the answer when I came into contact with Buddhism in 2014 - adultery and abortion.

1、Because of the heavy sexual misconduct, a man who is good at eating, drinking, gambling and poison.Life is worse than death after marriage, and it is domestic violence, lazy and has a bad temper.I rely on my work and pay to make a living.If you are unhappy, you will be cursed at the least, and you will be beaten up at the worst. You will be thrown at the same time.If you don’t get respect and understanding, you will cry all year round and be physically and mentally exhausted.

2、I had insomnia for more than a year, couldn't sleep all night, and I rummaged in bed for one night.I also go to work during the day, and I feel dizzy and swelling every morning, and my tears are dry.People get older several years in an instant, and they just think that death means rebirth and helping their lives.He didn't care about me, and he threw the Chinese medicine and jars from the second floor to the first floor. He was so desperate at that time.

3、Because of the high number of abortions, it leads to habitual miscarriage. When you want your child, you keep resting in bed. Fortunately, the child is saved.But my health is particularly poor, and I have cold hands and feet, weak limbs, and dizziness all year round.

4、I still have acne on my face until now, and I have always been glossy and acne after wave.I have been with me for nearly twenty years, with large pores and dull skin, almost disfigured.This is alsoThe consequences of sexual misconduct。

5、Bad breath,Retribution of evil lust，Don't dare to be too close to people.

6、If you are narrow-minded and you will be jealous and hate when you meet friends better than you.I like to talk about people behind my back and don’t like to praise people.Too self-righteous and arrogant.

7、My father died unfortunately because of me, and I am sorry to my father... I hope the one who was hit was me. I was wrong, and I am sorry to you...

8、Over the years, I have been poor and destitute because of adultery and have never had any extra money, let alone saving money, which is also the result.

9、Because my husband was not doing his job properly, he borrowed usury and misappropriated public funds, so he went to jail and was forced to his home by usury.Every day, I am threatened and forced, and I am frightened.

10、The marriage came to an end and was exhausted...

11、I often encounter walls at work, feel disheartened, but I still have no achievements after working hard, and I don’t like my boss.Colleagues are tense.

12、After the divorce, the child was awarded to my ex-husband, and I was unable to raise him. I often felt infinite guilt towards the child, crying, blaming myself, regretting... I will hate me for this for the rest of my life.I'm sorry for my dead dad, I'm sorry for my mom (My mother always sleeps all night for my marriage and sheds tears... )，Sorry, I didn't do what a mother should do...

People like me are not worthy of living or being a human being.Unexpectedly, the Bodhisattva is compassionate and does not give up even a helpless person like me, and is willing to save me...Let me be a human being again, thank the Bodhisattva! Thank you Bodhisattva!

After coming into contact with Buddhism, people feel better, sleep better, and they are cheerful, and gradually they can figure things out.I don’t envy others for being happy... Buddhism is true and true.Everyone should take my painful lesson as a warning, and don’t commit adultery or have an abortion.Women who are especially engaged in pornographic services should stop doing it and find a legitimate job; if you have mistresses and lovers outside, you should cut off your relationship and return to your family; be a kind person, do more good deeds, say more good things, and be a good person who takes Bodhisattvas as an example.

Namo’s teacher Shakyamuni Buddha!

Namo Ksitigarbha Bodhisattva!

Namo Guanyin Bodhisattva!